W for Want!

By - sneha
29.04.19 06:59 PM
I want so many things. Sometimes I know what exactly I am in want of and sometimes I am just unaware of my wants. But definitely I want something all the time. Sometimes all I want is a little me time. This is something that is very difficult for me to get while I am running around the two kids all day long. Sometimes my battery just gets exhausted and I could use this me time to recharge myself. 

Most times I want to feel wanted. Kids have grown up and reached a stage where they don't need me anymore, husband doesn't need me anymore. I can't imagine what I would actually do if I am in such a situation. That's something I fear all the time and that's one of the deepest reasons why I want to kick-start my career again. Sometimes I want company. 

A good laugh and a hearty chat with an adult for a conversation could feel like an absolute bliss. After all the baby talk and the nursery rhymes, adult talk is such a welcome change. Sometimes I want intimacy. I want to kissed and I want to have a spark alive in our dead relationship. I want to feel savoured, to taunted and tested. I want to hunted and I want to hunt. 

Well all this just happens over my fantasies, because after kids just plain old sex seems like a huge task. My wants have become nothing of mine. Your needs have become my priorities. I keep giving and my soul will deplete one day. Until then yes suck as much of me as you want. And once I am depleted, don't try to get me back because I will be gone too far from reach!

sneha